It’s been a long, long time since I updated my journal. To be honest I’m not quite sure where to begin. So I’ll start from recent thoughts.
I still work for the same company, but I work now in Battle Creek. The drive is not the best, but it’s manageable. My car doesn’t like the drive. She only seems to break down when I’m heading home.
I’ve been feeling alone lately for at least the last week. For the first 3 months in Battle Creek I didn’t have any time to think about life or what I wanted to do with myself. I worked so much. Like really it was bad. I would go about two weeks straight without a day off. This was because I did not have a third key in my store.
Now life has caught up to me and I do not like the feeling of being alone at night. Not like a wrist slasher or anything like that. I miss having someone to love and to fill my life with happiness. My friends are good, but at the end of night I walk into a dark apartment with lifeless furniture.
Yesterday, no wait, Sunday I started a battle plan. It was mainly telling myself that I just need to go out and talk to people. To start over and focus on gaining new woman friends and go on from there. But then I thought well my personality is a good friend, but the problem is that it’s hard to break the dreaded friend zone. So then I think, hey quit over analyzing everything dummy. If something happens, it happens. You can only plan your life so far and the exterior variables will fall into place as time goes on.
Enough of the sappy stuff.
Im taking some vacation soon, very soon. Some of which is next week and maybe if I’m lucky I might be able to go to Chicago in May. I need a con to goto. I want to just emerse myself in a pool of anime and to forget about my work life for awhile. Or maybe if I can’t afford Acen just check into a hotel in Chicago and just walk around for a couple of days. Maybe visit Bronson. Do some street magic or something. Just to get out of Michigan sounds like a fantastic idea.
I hope to own a digital camera soon so I can start doing. Better videos on YouTube. I also need my stupid hard drive back from Dave so I can reinstall my video editing software. Im going to have an anime review channel and today I figured out how I’m going to write it. Today I did a review that I didn’t post. Mainly because it wasnt edited and some if my thoughts where jumping around. Then I thought what if video tape myself saying what I wanted to say and then write it down, film it, and edit it nicely. I’m exteremly excited.
I was suppose to goto Cierra’s house today. I wasnt feeling very good and I worked open to close so I instead I went home and tried to sleep. Now at 2am now I still can’t sleep and I have another open to close tomorrow. I should fine.